Dawn Breaks on a New Year, and New Opportunities.

The year 2009 has descended upon us, and it is time for me to grow up.

I have been in a bad place for over a year and a half...and now things have changed. I have purpose in life again, I have goals and dreams. The path before me will be arduous and challenging, but I am ready. I have my friends behind me, and I know they will support me whatever I do.

I have made a list of New Year's Resolutions, and I plan on keeping every single one of them. I hope that as my friends and faithful readers, you help me hold them true, and if I break one...get me on the right track.

NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS:
1. Be open and honest. (I have been too secretive about things in my life up until now.) I will now allow my friends in to my life, even if it is too painful or I feel like a burden.

2. I want to lose weight. I used to think that I wouldn't find someone who truly loves for who you are unless I was still big. But, I figure that now...it doesn't hurt to be more fit. *This is something I need help in doing...especially exercise and diet stuff.*

3. I am going to stop actively looking for love. I have realized that in being intent on finding love, I see it in every kind gesture and minor flirt. This is especially bad, as I am a big flirty person. I am going to let things happen as they are supposed to...no forcing it anymore.

4. I'm going to spend more time with my friends. Whether that means being on campus more, working harder to get them to my place, or just simply keeping in touch...I want to do it and do it better. *This is something I want my friends to keep me good with...*

That is all I really have time for right now. I have more stuff about relationship thoughts and my future career goals...but they will have to come later. I have much to prepare for in my 13 hour day tomorrow. I will leave, however, with a quote that I think is appropriate for my state of mind on some things right now.

"Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that

Cause nobody wants to do it all on their own
And everyone wants to know the night alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there"

- Gotta Be Somebody, Nickelback