This weekend was great...and bad at the same time!
I got to do a lot of work for the concert. It was by far the best concert I've been to at UNH, the bands were great, set up and hanging out were fun...and I thoroughly enjoyed myself. The car accident with glenn on the other hand....could have been not as real as it actually was.
Its my own damn fault anyway, w/e...I had a panic attack today freaking out about how my mom would react...which is exactly the reason why I'm telling my dad first. I hate that my mom gets these reactions going in me...especially because I always feel like I have to lie to her, just to prolong the feeling that things are ok. She has her opinions, like that I suck at driving, that will never leave her head...no matter what I do. I don't know, sometimes I think my dad can be my biggest fan, and my mom can be my harshest critic. Ugh.
On the positive, Meg came to visit for the Carnival! Saturday was absolutely amazing...spending 14 hours with her made everything about the other days seem so worth it. I'm completely falling in love with her, I can feel it. I've never had anyone make me feel like this so quickly. She has already given me specific dates in the next month I need to keep open for events...including her graduation. I'm kind of excited to meet her parents. According to Meg, they seem excited to meet me too.
Sunday is still up in the air...this panic attack has me really worried about things in life again...like a job and supporting myself. I want to be able to get a job and be successful. It doesn't matter where anymore.
It seems my life is picking up however. I have another amazing girl in my life...not that that deters any of the other amazing women in my life. Just, she gives me that smile, that look...that tells me that when she's with me, she would rather be no where else. That, and the fact that she can say five words to me that completely blow me away and leave me speechless...again and again.
Oh boy...I'm so freaking in love.
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