It is a weird feeling, packing up college life for the last time. How quickly things went by, how quickly things changed from good to bad to ugly and vice versa.
I go home tomorrow, and I really don't want to. I honestly don't think I can or will be as independent as I am right now until I can afford my own place. God knows when that is.
Target called me back the next day to cancel my interview. My other store had me marked as "unrehirable" and neither one could or would tell me why. (I love the corporate system).
Although, Best Buy called me the day after for a phone interview...and I haven't heard anything back. They said I would get something in the mail if they were not going to move forward with me. To be honest, I am expecting a letter when I get home, ugh.
I just want my EMT back and a job. That would make me happy right now. But, the job market sucks, and I have no idea when things are going to fix themselves on the EMT front. My main issue with that is that I would love to get a job in EMS but I need a certification first.
Oh well, back to packing. I have a lot of work to do, and I feel a little better after a quick vent.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Oh Tests
I took my EMT Practical exam on Saturday. Boy was I freaking nervous. I don't even know why really, just the atmosphere is kind of stiffling, not to mention the testing place was hot as balls too.
Either way, I had to prove through 6 separate stations that I know what I am doing as an EMT. It is one of those things that made me wonder why I let my certification go for so long...and why I let it lapse. I am never making that mistake again...the state test blows. Besides the fact to take both you need to shell out at least 100 dollars. Really? A C-note? Damn.
I realize now that I am really over-thinking things about my test, mainly because I think I probably failed every single station. I know that I didn't fail all the stations, but I definitely have my serious doubts about two of them, and moderate doubts about two more.
I think I might have failed the KED station because it was a little off center...also because my "observer" EMT partner acted like a special Olympian. I shouldn't say that...it probably would offend the Special Olympics. He didn't know what he was doing, and he couldn't even hold C-spine....even said "I don't know what I'm doing," and let go of the patient three times. If they fault me on that....I'm going to the State. Cuz that shit is ridiculous.
I have an idea I might fail the BVM station because I tried to insert an oral airway that was too big. Upon realizing it mid-insertion, I promptly removed it and added the correct sized one. The rest of the station seemed to go fine, just I don't know if that would have counted as delaying the deliverance of artificial ventilation.
As for the two stations that probably aren't a problem, but could be are the random station and the medical station. Random just seemed like it went by too quickly for me. I don't know, maybe it was just being nervous, but for all I know I might have missed something. I also fear that I did poorly in the Medical station simply because the instructor was a weird woman. I could not see her ever working in an EMS capacity. It boggled my mind.
Anyway, done with the rant.
I got a call back from Target in Windsor today about a job! They want to set up an interview for Thursday for possibly the backroom or as a cashier. I honestly don't care about the job, just that I have a job. I remember working for Target before and disliking it, but I think that only had to do with the fact that I was part time and felt like I was getting the short end of the stick.
I'm excited about the prospect of a full time job when I get out of college. Here's for high hopes.
Either way, I had to prove through 6 separate stations that I know what I am doing as an EMT. It is one of those things that made me wonder why I let my certification go for so long...and why I let it lapse. I am never making that mistake again...the state test blows. Besides the fact to take both you need to shell out at least 100 dollars. Really? A C-note? Damn.
I realize now that I am really over-thinking things about my test, mainly because I think I probably failed every single station. I know that I didn't fail all the stations, but I definitely have my serious doubts about two of them, and moderate doubts about two more.
I think I might have failed the KED station because it was a little off center...also because my "observer" EMT partner acted like a special Olympian. I shouldn't say that...it probably would offend the Special Olympics. He didn't know what he was doing, and he couldn't even hold C-spine....even said "I don't know what I'm doing," and let go of the patient three times. If they fault me on that....I'm going to the State. Cuz that shit is ridiculous.
I have an idea I might fail the BVM station because I tried to insert an oral airway that was too big. Upon realizing it mid-insertion, I promptly removed it and added the correct sized one. The rest of the station seemed to go fine, just I don't know if that would have counted as delaying the deliverance of artificial ventilation.
As for the two stations that probably aren't a problem, but could be are the random station and the medical station. Random just seemed like it went by too quickly for me. I don't know, maybe it was just being nervous, but for all I know I might have missed something. I also fear that I did poorly in the Medical station simply because the instructor was a weird woman. I could not see her ever working in an EMS capacity. It boggled my mind.
Anyway, done with the rant.
I got a call back from Target in Windsor today about a job! They want to set up an interview for Thursday for possibly the backroom or as a cashier. I honestly don't care about the job, just that I have a job. I remember working for Target before and disliking it, but I think that only had to do with the fact that I was part time and felt like I was getting the short end of the stick.
I'm excited about the prospect of a full time job when I get out of college. Here's for high hopes.
Monday, May 4, 2009
Weekends that make us and break us.
This weekend was great...and bad at the same time!
I got to do a lot of work for the concert. It was by far the best concert I've been to at UNH, the bands were great, set up and hanging out were fun...and I thoroughly enjoyed myself. The car accident with glenn on the other hand....could have been not as real as it actually was.
Its my own damn fault anyway, w/e...I had a panic attack today freaking out about how my mom would react...which is exactly the reason why I'm telling my dad first. I hate that my mom gets these reactions going in me...especially because I always feel like I have to lie to her, just to prolong the feeling that things are ok. She has her opinions, like that I suck at driving, that will never leave her head...no matter what I do. I don't know, sometimes I think my dad can be my biggest fan, and my mom can be my harshest critic. Ugh.
On the positive, Meg came to visit for the Carnival! Saturday was absolutely amazing...spending 14 hours with her made everything about the other days seem so worth it. I'm completely falling in love with her, I can feel it. I've never had anyone make me feel like this so quickly. She has already given me specific dates in the next month I need to keep open for events...including her graduation. I'm kind of excited to meet her parents. According to Meg, they seem excited to meet me too.
Sunday is still up in the air...this panic attack has me really worried about things in life again...like a job and supporting myself. I want to be able to get a job and be successful. It doesn't matter where anymore.
It seems my life is picking up however. I have another amazing girl in my life...not that that deters any of the other amazing women in my life. Just, she gives me that smile, that look...that tells me that when she's with me, she would rather be no where else. That, and the fact that she can say five words to me that completely blow me away and leave me speechless...again and again.
Oh boy...I'm so freaking in love.
I got to do a lot of work for the concert. It was by far the best concert I've been to at UNH, the bands were great, set up and hanging out were fun...and I thoroughly enjoyed myself. The car accident with glenn on the other hand....could have been not as real as it actually was.
Its my own damn fault anyway, w/e...I had a panic attack today freaking out about how my mom would react...which is exactly the reason why I'm telling my dad first. I hate that my mom gets these reactions going in me...especially because I always feel like I have to lie to her, just to prolong the feeling that things are ok. She has her opinions, like that I suck at driving, that will never leave her head...no matter what I do. I don't know, sometimes I think my dad can be my biggest fan, and my mom can be my harshest critic. Ugh.
On the positive, Meg came to visit for the Carnival! Saturday was absolutely amazing...spending 14 hours with her made everything about the other days seem so worth it. I'm completely falling in love with her, I can feel it. I've never had anyone make me feel like this so quickly. She has already given me specific dates in the next month I need to keep open for events...including her graduation. I'm kind of excited to meet her parents. According to Meg, they seem excited to meet me too.
Sunday is still up in the air...this panic attack has me really worried about things in life again...like a job and supporting myself. I want to be able to get a job and be successful. It doesn't matter where anymore.
It seems my life is picking up however. I have another amazing girl in my life...not that that deters any of the other amazing women in my life. Just, she gives me that smile, that look...that tells me that when she's with me, she would rather be no where else. That, and the fact that she can say five words to me that completely blow me away and leave me speechless...again and again.
Oh boy...I'm so freaking in love.
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